they both will come.

October 23, 2016.Reading time 5 minutes.

I’ve continued to find so much hope and comfort in writing again. This feeling of heart-ripped-open, teeth chattering, tears flowing, keys pounding on the keyboard feeling is far from foreign to me and, each time life guides me back to this place, a small part of me feels like I’m coming home. I still find […]

a letter to the warrior women who saved me.

October 10, 2016.Reading time 5 minutes.

The past month has been full of so much loss, so much heartache, and so much grief. It has been floodgates opening, screaming silence and unanswered questions; it has been picking myself up only to fall down all over again. It has been questioning and clawing, reaching and grasping, it has been hopeless and terrifying […]

all the ways you’ll find me {poetry}

September 27, 2016.Reading time 3 minutes.

Tell me all of the ways you’re sorry. I’ll tell you how I’m not sorry for all the ways you’ll find me long after I leave. You made this bed and I am the reason she will be scared to look underneath when it’s time to go to sleep. She will not see me in […]

[ME]et again

September 22, 2016.Reading time 3 minutes.

[ME]et again So we meet again. Falling to the floor like a newborn calf, I swear I was walking seconds ago. face meets carpet and it feels like I’m screaming no one would know I was home if they were standing outside my door It’s like I’m running away while standing still spinning in […]

This is how we love now;

September 19, 2016.Reading time 5 minutes.

This is how we love now. Good morning text messages and Facebook official posts. Undressing our clothes as we build walls around our hearts, No one ever truly sees us naked anymore. This is how we love now. Love is not intercepted notes in English class and hanging up each time his dad answers the […]

he’ll listen, but he will already know.

April 15, 2016.Reading time 4 minutes.

I remember wishing more than anything for my dad to visit me in my dreams after he passed away. I almost felt angry when friends or family told me that he was in theirs, like I was being cheated out of seeing him, or he was choosing to visit other people first, or maybe […]

so here I am, surviving.

February 19, 2016.Reading time 9 minutes.

I promised myself I would start writing again. I thought it would help. Force me to talk about the things I was feeling with paper the way I used to. Writing was one of the only things that truly understood me for a really long time. So, I said it was time to start back […]

the only way out is in.

October 16, 2015.Reading time 9 minutes.

It’s amazing how alone we can feel until we encounter someone who understands the inconsistent beat of our terrified heart. I know all too often how it feels to be in a room full of thousands of people and still feel so alone. To try and fill that void is a lost cause because, often […]

An Open Letter to Anyone Planning to Watch “50 Shades of Grey” This Weekend {written by a survivor of sexual abuse}

February 12, 2015.Reading time 10 minutes.

An open letter to anyone planning on watching 50 Shades of Grey this weekend, To be completely honest, I’m worried for the release of this movie. I am worried for the fact that this movie glamorizes aggressive sexual encounters, submissive women, and depicts pain, domination, and animalistic confrontations as intimate and desirable. There is […]

Reasons a girl decides she isn’t beautiful:

January 2, 2015.Reading time 4 minutes.

I remember the first time I met you. I didn’t think you noticed me until you smiled and gave me a thumbs up when the song I requested came on the jukebox. You always loved me for the choices I made; I didn’t have a choice in loving you. Reasons a girl decides she isn’t […]