the answer no matter the question; I am here. {poetry}

// I am here. For the moment in the morning when you forget about what happened one hundred sleepless nights before For the shameless attack on your hollow heart as the memory creeps in and it feels like it’s happening over and over and over again. For the shaking hands and sea salt tears and […]

Read More

a baby grand and her Rubinstein {poetry}

Credit: Page Lillian Open up my pages and read me like a book, Run your tired fingers up and down my spine, I’ll be the story that keeps you hooked. Find my inner lyrics, and sing me like a song, A baby grand that’s found her Rubinstein, You can play me all night long. Paint […]

Read More

sometimes I get scared that you don’t exist.

Sometimes, I get angry that you have not found me yet. I get angry because there have been times I have needed you and cried out for you. I have hoped and prayed and begged for you. I asked, and you never answered. I called out, and there was no response. I searched, and you […]

Read More

Who are you giving your love to?

  WHO ARE YOU GIVING YOUR LOVE TO? There I was. Pulled over to the side of the road, tears stinging the back of my eyes. I’d drive if my hands weren’t shaking so badly. I’d leave if I knew staying was going to hurt so much. My heart was beating out of my chest, […]

Read More

The Hero of This Story: You. Are. Not. Alone.

I think that everyone we come in contact with is wearing a heavy backpack on his or her back.  This backpack is filled with mistakes, failures, dead-end roads, regrets, secrets, demons and skeletons. We trudge along, day after day, and this backpack becomes part of us. We don’t question it, don’t ask others about what […]

Read More

mourning always comes

  Some nights feel like they were created for cuddling Crisp air, cozy blankets, and a chilly heart that can’t seem to get warm No matter how tightly you squeeze your eyes together in an attempt to keep the light out, morning always comes And life always goes on Almost as though this night never […]

Read More

come closer, love.

  Come closer, love Close enough that I can feel your light Piercing rays, sparkling haze, unmask my demons in the night Come closer, love Close enough that I can taste your fears breathe your secrets into my trembling lips kiss me with questions until the answer appears Come closer, love Close enough that I […]

Read More

//the eyes you’re looking at me with tonight

  //Maybe I’m the path you stumbled across the moment you were sure you’d lost your way A winding road so unexpected, leading your tired feet to a brand new day Maybe I’m the dusty cloud, swirling around a world you once traveled alone, packing your lungs with every piece of me, a breath-filled trail […]

Read More

Stop! What is your mind trying to tell you?

Whatever you are doing right now, stop. Stop, and give five minutes completely to yourself. Set a timer, close your eyes, spin around in your chair until you feel so dizzy you think you might fall over. Do whatever you need in order to have five minutes completely alone. Trapped in your mind. Free of […]

Read More

Falling in Love: Only on days ending in Y.

A friend texted me out of the blue last week and asked if I ever feel like I want to be in love with someone other than myself. I had to chuckle at the last part because I’m sure he assumed he would get some soapbox “I love myself and that’s all that matters” answer […]

Read More