{the first time I met grief}

November 22, 2017.Reading time 7 minutes.

The first time I met grief, I didn’t know what to do with him. He showed up at my door like a child dressed up as the grim reaper. He looked just as scared as I was. We stared at each other and I tried to close the door, but he showed up by my […]

When love comes back

October 1, 2017.Reading time 2 minutes.

I used to hope that there would be fireworks and confetti when love found me again. I begged for some kind of sign that I would be able to see or hear or feel all the screaming yeses promising me that love had really come back around. I practiced noticing the subtle differences between the […]

Tonight, my words are ready.

November 14, 2016.Reading time 15 minutes.

I have learned that when the words are ready, they will come. Whether you are sitting at your keyboard or sitting in traffic, the words will come and they will claw their way out of you until you let them be heard. Tonight, my words are ready. They are not pretty or decorated with sugar […]

all the ways you’ll find me {poetry}

September 27, 2016.Reading time 3 minutes.

Tell me all of the ways you’re sorry. I’ll tell you how I’m not sorry for all the ways you’ll find me long after I leave. You made this bed and I am the reason she will be scared to look underneath when it’s time to go to sleep. She will not see me in […]

[ME]et again

September 22, 2016.Reading time 3 minutes.

[ME]et again So we meet again. Falling to the floor like a newborn calf, I swear I was walking seconds ago. face meets carpet and it feels like I’m screaming no one would know I was home if they were standing outside my door It’s like I’m running away while standing still spinning in […]

This is how we love now;

September 19, 2016.Reading time 5 minutes.

This is how we love now. Good morning text messages and Facebook official posts. Undressing our clothes as we build walls around our hearts, No one ever truly sees us naked anymore. This is how we love now. Love is not intercepted notes in English class and hanging up each time his dad answers the […]

I’ve learned this about grief.

October 11, 2015.Reading time 2 minutes.

I’ve learned this about grief. It is relentless and unexpected and somehow finds a way to make you feel lost without its presence. It does not care if you just washed your hair and have plans for Saturday night but it never shows up for the pity party you spent your whole month planning. […]

Reasons a girl decides she isn’t beautiful:

January 2, 2015.Reading time 4 minutes.

I remember the first time I met you. I didn’t think you noticed me until you smiled and gave me a thumbs up when the song I requested came on the jukebox. You always loved me for the choices I made; I didn’t have a choice in loving you. Reasons a girl decides she isn’t […]

be braver than I have been; let yourself be loved

August 21, 2014.Reading time 1 minute.

Because someday love is going to fill you as easily as the rain fills the endless sea. I always thought the ocean was complete until I watched it become a forever home for terrified droplets being dispelled from the sky. Be braver than I have been. Don’t hide your water behind glass doors and […]

you are eyes squeezed tightly {poetry}

August 5, 2014.Reading time 8 minutes.

Initially, this was a tough piece to share. I’ve sat down in an attempt to write a letter to the people who hurt me when I was little a thousand times. And a thousand times, all I could ever write was “I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.” Less than therapeutic. A few […]