changing the ending this time

I don’t know how to exist in a healthy relationship. I am literally just barely recognizing that I’ve never even had one, and it’s terrifying to feel like some weird lens has been removed from my eyes. At 30, I’m finally learning (ready to learn? hoping to learn?) skills vital to loving and being loved. […]

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the only way out is in.

It’s amazing how alone we can feel until we encounter someone who understands the inconsistent beat of our terrified heart. I know all too often how it feels to be in a room full of thousands of people and still feel so alone. To try and fill that void is a lost cause because, often […]

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Reasons a girl decides she isn’t beautiful:

I remember the first time I met you. I didn’t think you noticed me until you smiled and gave me a thumbs up when the song I requested came on the jukebox. You always loved me for the choices I made; I didn’t have a choice in loving you. Reasons a girl decides she isn’t […]

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Page 1 of 365, My Wish for You

Page 1 of 365, My Wish for You I wish you enough sunlight to kiss the freckles on your nose and enough darkness to show you that the stars will always guide you home. I wish you enough laughter to deepen the lines by your eyes each and every day and enough wisdom to know […]

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In a room full of darkness, all I saw was light.

  I’m scared. Not the kind of scared where you check the closet twice for monsters and make a flying leap onto your bed so the girl from The Sixth Sense does not reach out from underneath to grab your legs. Not the kind of scared you feel on the drive to your boyfriend’s house […]

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Lost in the NUM8ER5

It’s so interesting how much our mind comes into play when it comes to meeting our goals or how we measure our success.  We get so caught up in NUMBERS. In measuring our success with statistics, pounds, percentages. I think it’s completely ridiculous that I can be having a perfectly good day, feeling confident about […]

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SundaeLu Bikini, LTD

Meet my friend Sundae Marshall: Total bombshell, right? Let me tell you, this girl is SO MUCH more than a pretty face and a rockin’ bod. Sundae is one of the sweetest, most genuine girls that I have ever met and she has a heart of gold. She works full time, is sponsored by Optimum […]

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